| hahaaaaa |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|11:28 pm] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | My Chemical Romance | ] |
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[Dec. 15th, 2004|07:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Within Temptation - Deceiver of Fools | ] |
He feeds on fear
He feeds on pain
He rules again
If for all he cares
He will guide
The faith again
Our light in the darkness
Is to small to see
There's always a sparkle of hope
If you just believe
He told the tale so many times
About the dream not meant to be
In a world of the free
He plays with your mind
As faith for the future faded fast
He grows strong with their displeasure
It sets him free
Chorus:
Deceiver of hearts
Deceiver of fools
He rules with fear
Deceiver of hopes
Deceiver of fools
He rules again
He feeds on fear
Poisons the truth
To gain their faith
To lead the way
To a world of decay
He rules your heart
He will sell your soul to the grave
Without a hesitation to make
He belongs to the dark
(chorus)
Please awake
And see the truth
He can only be
If you believe what he tells you
Remember who you are
What you stand for
And there will always be a way
(chorus)
In my heart there is a place
In my heart there is a trace
Of a small fire burning
A sheltering ray shines through this night
Although it 's small, it's bright
But darkness is lurking
He will sell your soul to bitterness and cold
Oh fear him
Deceiver of hearts
Deceiver of fools
He rules with fear
Deceiver of hopes
Deceiver of fools
Shall he rule again? |
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| wheeee |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|07:25 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
18 more days yo!!! |
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| Whee! |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|04:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
So I'm going to Vermont in January! Its gonna be so much fun!
Omg...it's gonna be SO cold though...haha...I'm gonna love it
And then my buddies from Canada are coming down to visit...woot woot!! |
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| You know who this is for..:) |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|04:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bloodhound Gang - Pac Man | ] |
Letter Kills - I'll Be Fine
it was a long night on the phone
short-thought promises of never being alone
for a long time we weren't there
but little did we know
the good times that we share
and i hope you never compromise
the things i see when i
i look into your eyes
it's the same look at you
when i notice you
you notice that i smile
cause i'll feel better
when i'm swinging on the porch
and i'll feel better
when the arms i meet are yours
well i just wanna thank you
for being you
and putting up with me
cause i know you didn't have to
but you're always there to be mine
and i hope you never compromise
the things i see when i
i look into your eyes
it's the same look at you
when i notice you
you notice that i smile
cause i'll feel better
when i'm swinging on the porch
and i'll feel better
when the arms i meet are yours
and i'll feel better
when i'm swinging on the porch
and i'll feel better
when the arms i meet are yours
i know you said i could be back there
i never promised we could be back there
swinging on the porch
i never said we could be back there
so now you say we could be back there
the arms i meet are yours |
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| Good Song :) |
[Dec. 3rd, 2004|03:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Taking Back Sunday - Great Romances of the 20th Century | ] |
a beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like youve been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make you feel high
Full a single greatest commodity known to man
Promise. promise of a better day
Promise of a greater hope
Promise of a new tomorrow
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautilful girl
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be ok...
September never stays this cold
where I come from
And you know
I’m not one for complaining,
But I love the way you’d roll
excuses off the tip of your tongue
as I slowly fall apart (slowly, quietly, slowly)
fall apart
This won’t mean a thing come tomorrow
and that’s exactly how I’ll make it seem
Cause I'm still not sleeping,
thinking I’ve crawled home from worse than this
So please, please (please)
I’m running out of sympathy (I'm running out of sympathy!)
and I never said I’d take this
I never said I'd take this lying down
She says
"come on, come on, let’s just get this over with”
She says
"come on, come on, let’s just get this over with”
(I never said I’d take this lying down, let's just get this over with,
and I've crawled home from worse than this)
She says
"come on, come on, let’s just get this over with”
She says
"come on, come on.."
You always come close but this never comes easy,
I still know everything
You always come close but this never comes easy,
I still know everything
You always come close but this never comes easy,
I still know everything
You always come so close...
I still know everything, I still know everything, I still know...
You always come close but this never comes easy
You always come close but this never comes easy
You always come... you come in close
I never said I'd take this lying down
I never said I'd take this lying down
I never said I'd take this lying down
but I've crawled home from worse than this
If it's not keeping you up nights
then what’s the point
then what’s the point
then what’s the point
then what’s the point
I'm in your room
now is this turning you on
am I turning you on?
I'm in your room
are you turned on?
I'm on the corner of your bed,
I'm thinking maybe,
are you turned on,
are you turned on? |
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| You make it so much easier... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2004|04:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Letter Kills - Village Anthem | ] |
it's been so long
can i have a minute of your time
this won't take long
to let you know where i stand
where i am
cause it's been seven long full months
since i could hold your hands
it's okay
i understand
you say that i'm in love
would that be too much?
and you said these thoughts would fade away
but knowing this
waiting takes so long
this time tell me more than you know
and i still seem to notice
when you're here, when you're there
for some reason i care
cause it's been seven long full months
since i could ask you about your day
and know that i would be the first to hear you say
you say that i'm in love
would that bring too much?
you said these thoughts would fade away
but knowing this
waiting takes so long
you say that i'm in love
would that bring too much?
you said these thoughts would fade away
but knowing this
patience brings us change (??)
you say that i'm in love
would that bring too much?
you said these thoughts would fade away
but knowing this
patience brings us change |
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| Thank You... |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|01:04 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  dorky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Atreyu - Ain't Love Grand? | ] |
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I stay in your arms? |
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| :( |
[Nov. 24th, 2004|06:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Finch - What It Is To Burn | ] |
I'm going out of town until Sunday evening. :(
I'll missss you...
Finch - What It Is To Burn
She burns
Today's on fire
The sky is bleeding above me, and I am blistered
I walk these lines of blasphemy, every day
And still
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
I feel diseased
Is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire
But I am safe in here, from the world outside
So tell me
What's the price to pay for glory?
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
Today is fire, and she burns
Today is fire, and she burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn |
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| Traits.... |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|04:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sandstorm? | ] |
Took this from Christian.
You list a trait about everyone on your friends list and then they comment and guess which one they are? seems interesting enough
1) Havent talked to talked to in years!
2) Wanted to make out with her at Animazement last year
3) The most hardcore straight-edge guy I know!
4) POSTS EVERY DAY AT LEAST 10 TIMES
5) That crazy girl I used to talk to a lot more than I do now :(
6) Words canniot describe
7) Super tall, crazy guy
8) That girl I had the biggest crush on in High School
9) Lived in her apartment for like....4 days straight. Then I went home. |
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| Random update of sleep deprivedness |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|04:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | OC Remix - FF7: Cid Sends A Dream to the Undersea Palace (please dont ask) | ] |
Soooo...hmmm...where to begin.
I'm going to start with a rant about My Chemical Romance. They are an amazing band, its true. It just seems like everyone and theire brother likes them these days. I've liked them for like...a year or so? I don't remember when I went to Richmond with Steve Sean and Kyle, but it definately owned. We got to listen to all sorts of albums before they were released and jank...and My Chemical Romance was one of them...and I was hooked then. Now....ugh. I don't now. I dont know why it irks me. More people should like their goodness?
But anyway....
Hmmm...its kinda weird, when you write something in your journal and you know that the person you're writing about will read it....
Breanne really is great...she makes me smile soooo much...
All the things we talk about doing...make me really look forward to her being here... I dunno, I'm a big dork, but its true. Laying together just talking for hours on end sounds like the greatest thing in the world right now....cuddled up in eachother's arms....le sigh.
And I know my mom is just gonna love her to death, it'll be great...
:)
Is it possible? Terry happy for once? We'll see...stay tuned kiddos. |
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| *yawn* |
[Nov. 13th, 2004|02:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Stabbing Westward - What Do I Have To Do? | ] |
Stabbing Westward - What Do I Have to Do?
You make it hard to breathe
It's as if I'm suffocating
And when you're next to me
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
It makes me sad to think
This all could be for nothing
I wish there was a way
For you to see inside of me
I've never felt this way
About anyone or anything
Tell me
What do I have to do to make you happy?
What do I have to do to make you understand?
What do I have to do to make you want me?
And, if I can't make you want me
What do I have to do?
I know exactly what you're thinking
But I swear this time I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be
That was a part of me that never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything
Anything at all to keep you satisfied
God I hope you see what loving you would do to me
All I want is one more chance, so tell me...
What do I have to do to make you love me? |
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| =/ |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|07:59 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beautiful Mistake - Wide Eyes | ] |
Not really sure what to say...I feel like I'm riding a rollercoaster through the dark...afraid of it running out of track and not seeing it coming...
I'm an idiot.
So anyway.
Nekocon was fun. I got to meet lots of random people, got to know Christian a little better, hes pretty damn cool. Met some awesome people from Glouster(sp?). One of them, Chelsea, was pretty damn cool. She was very....hmm...how to put it..I guess you could say she was very intellectual...very opinionated. I thought she was cool. Then there were the 15 year olds that wanted to flirt but had trouble with it...haha they were shocked when they found out I was 19 almost 20. No, I didnt mess with any of them..sheesh dirty bitches. And then there were the girls that tried to take my pants off going in to the game room...that was highly amusing.
Then there were the long late night conversations with Breanne (<3) on the phone. She makes me so happy sometimes...other times...eh...she confuses me. But I think shes just confused herself and not completely sure what she wants...I don't know. It scares me sometimes. I'm such a stupid boy. But whatever. We'll see.......
Beautiful Mistake - Wide Eyes
Walking by your house,
and reeking of the drinks I've had
My life is just a waste, a blinded waste
and I'm wide awake
my eyes have met with yours
depressions gone away
I won't walk away from you
like the prodigal I've been
I'll never run away from you
cuz I've seen the other side
I'm never going back again
back again right now
with my eyes, my eyes wide open
my eyes, my eyes wide open
I walked away from you
and I walked away from you |
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| Gather round... |
[Nov. 9th, 2004|07:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | FFVII OST - Main Theme | ] |
Let me tell you about a girl I know. Her name is Breanne. She is the most beautiful girl in the world. Seriously. She may not realize it, but she is. She's moving here in a little less than 2 months, and I can not WAIT. Talking to her makes me so happy...and im gonna stop this post of loserishness right now!
:p |
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| Minor update of sorts. |
[Nov. 8th, 2004|03:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | enthralled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Last Week - Beautiful Girl | ] |
Got back from Nekocon last night...my comp is currently down so I can't write a full entry..umm...
Had a blast.
<3 Breanne..and uhh...
Oh yeah, this song rocks.
Last Week - Beautiful Girl
From the first time that I laid my eyes on this girl
I knew she was the most beautiful girl in the world
Smooth skin with such a smile
She drives, she drives me wild again
When she walks into the room I look at nothing else
I think she needs to be more aware of her self
She's got some problems that I think she needs to work out
She takes some coke so she doesn't have to think about
Her self, her self
(You are) You are the most beautiful girl, the most beautiful girl
(You are) In your heart you feel you're not
It don't look it but she's got a lot to think about
Shit goes up her nose and words like this just come out
"They think i think I'm better"
But they don't know the demons out to get her
And she breaks down, she breaks down
(You are) You are the most beautiful girl, the most beautiful girl
(You are) In your heart you feel you're not
You feel you'll go nowhere, you feel out of place
You feel you're a shame you're a fucking disgrace
You're wasted like you wanna be
Cause you've got nothing else
(You are) You are
In your heart you feel you're not
You feel you'll go nowhere, you feel out of place
You feel you're a shame you're a fucking disgrace but
You are the most beautiful girl, the most beautiful girl in the world |
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| Gosh... |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|03:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Letterkills - Clock is Down | ] |
I get too emotional sometimes.
So tonight is the Story of the Year concert, with My Chemical Romance, Letter Kills, Lost Prophets, and some others.
Lookin forward to that...then tommorow I'm going early with Kyle to get our badges for Nekocon...wooty woot. That should be fun, I'll be able to relax and have a good time! :) |
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| ... |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|01:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Stabbing Westward - Waking Up Beside You | ] |
Stabbing Westward - Waking Up Beside You
I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world
Forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay
So I memorized the color of your eyes as I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined as I drifted off beside you
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you
At night I cling to you, I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promised that you'd not abandon me
And kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day
But I had memorized the way our eyes
would meet reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you
I've been so alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts
To wake up so alone
But I memorized how warm your body felt
as you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight
filled the room and played upon your body
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you |
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| I tried... |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|02:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Finch - What it is to Burn | ] |
Oi...I think tonight was the first time I've cried since...I don't know when.
Why do I always do this to myself?
It always ends the same way...:( |
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| Hmmmm.... |
[Oct. 10th, 2004|11:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Atreyu - Right Side of the Bed | ] |
This entry is just for the *tirsh* :):).
Dunno what I'm doing with my life right now.... I'm really starting to think about just going to school. I don't need to go into the Navy to be successful, sure I won't have as much time to do what I want, but I'm sure my parents will help me pay for college, and I can work PT to earn enough money to get by on...I just need to fix my car. #1 priority right now. The more I think about it...the Navy would be awesome, I could affiord the things I want, get to meet all sorts of new people, but at the cost of what I have now...I love my friends, each and every single one of them, even if some of them don't deserve it *cough cough*. I can't stand the thought of not being around the people I care about... It saddens me greatly. For now...I think working and going to school is the best move for my future without the expense of my present. Guess I oughta go over to TCC and find out about enrolling, eh?
My job now is...crazy. It takes up so much of my time, and I can't be out late because it requires me to be up. Phone's ringing...blah, I'll write more later. |
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